some ruminations on the inherent dislike of my self
[cw: suicidal thoughts] I guess this does not come as a surprise to anyone – I think I have an inherent dislike for my self. No one who inherently likes them selves…
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from creativity to activity
I started making websites and dabbling in photoshop when I first got my computer at 15. I never felt particularly creative as a child and I hated art classes so when that…
the uncomfortable phase of learning
I have begun strength training for the first time in october last year. I had three personal training sessions before I traveled to japan, and when I got back there was a…
the amazing tools and research we now have for our metabolic health
[cw: metabolic health, diet] My paternal grandmother died before I was born, apparently of diabetes complications. When I was younger I couldn’t understand what it meant to die of diabetes complications –…
gathering different pieces of myself
I’ve been back home for a few days now. It feels good to be where I feel the safest, slowly working to get back to the routine I had before. Yesterday I…
psychological health vs physical health
Travelling keeps me sane. It is only on this trip that I realised how much my brain craves being in some sort of engagement, and travelling is a way to keep it…
learning to be physically stronger
After thinking about it for more than three years, I’ve finally signed up for personal training so I can learn how to strength-train. We start to have muscle loss as we age:…
getting closer to my darkness
I have always struggled with my mind, but the intensity seemed to worsen in the past few months. Tracing back, I think it was since my covid infection. I wasn’t surprised to…
happiness is a difficult thing to bear
I am an unhappy person in general. But once in a while, an acute sense of awareness strikes me and I experience the totality of that particular moment – I catch a…
health is much more difficult to deal with than disease
Winnicott says somewhere that health is much more difficult to deal with than disease. And he’s right, I think, in the sense that everybody is dealing with how much of their own aliveness they can bear and how much they need to anesthetize themselves.