what is it like to spend almost a quarter of my entire life with someone? i feel like it is one of life’s greatest gifts to be known so intimately, that we can utterly be ourselves in each other’s company, it is a sense of complete relaxation in the other’s presence. after having decades of chronic insomnia i can’t believe there is someone out here who can make me feel sleepy, after an entire lifetime of masking there is someone whom i can be the purest version of myself with, a version i didn’t even know exists. it wasn’t purpose, meaning or success that made me experience the transcendence of life. it was love — her love specifically. everything complex becomes simple, and everything ordinary, sublime. 102 months later, this love continues to provoke, and i remain drunk and yet awakened in it.