she always wanted to take one of these photo booth shots, but me being the perpetual grinch i’d always said no (esp since we can’t unmask), but today i just thought why not even in a mask (i must be growing up) so we took our first ever photo booth photo together after 99 months! we usually plan to do something special every month but this month we’re both tired, so instead we simply did all our usual favourite things together: brunch (outdoors), art, matcha lattes, daiso. it is also the first time we drawing the same subjects with the exact same tools, could you guess which is hers and which is mine? my brain is broken so there is so much of my life i am simply unable to feel and be aware of, but today i am reminded that she is my signpost that happiness in my life does exist, even if i can’t thoroughly feel it. that despite all the darkness her presence is full of colours. i may not feel it all the time, but i can recognise it, because i recognise her, for i can truly be known, seen and loved when i am with her. happiness is not euphoria for me, but an undeniable knowing.